080521 if dreams would come true
all night i've been dreaming about L.
the one i think i will love for ever and ever. even though he was a real pig...
i never think about him when i'm awake, but as soon as i fall asleep he's right there.
kissing me, holding me, telling me how much he loves me and that it was all just a huge mistake.
i guess that this is what i hope for, deep inside, i can't stop thinking about him.
i keep myself busy during the days, working, texting old flirts, hanging out with friends who makes me laugh like crazy. and all those other things that makes the days go by.
but i can't control my dreams.
last night i also texted F. just because i don't want to lose him, not yet...
well now i'm off exchanging money.
take care!
the one i think i will love for ever and ever. even though he was a real pig...
i never think about him when i'm awake, but as soon as i fall asleep he's right there.
kissing me, holding me, telling me how much he loves me and that it was all just a huge mistake.
i guess that this is what i hope for, deep inside, i can't stop thinking about him.
i keep myself busy during the days, working, texting old flirts, hanging out with friends who makes me laugh like crazy. and all those other things that makes the days go by.
but i can't control my dreams.
last night i also texted F. just because i don't want to lose him, not yet...
well now i'm off exchanging money.
take care!
080520 you can't have the cookie and eat it
today's been slow. just a normal wednesday. but it kinda felt like a friday. and so did W think. hahah. i wish it was...
cos right now all i can think about is my trip. finally some sun! and good food and plenty of beer! and wine! just a few more days...
i can't wait to just leave stockholm behind!
i've had alot on my mind latley and i just need to figure some stuff out...
like what the hell am i doing?
what do i want?
should i listen to my heart?
or should i keep seeing him?
him, the perfect guy. F.
he who would treat me so good. just like i deserve. he who would take care of me.
because that's all i want really. someone to take care of me. be nice to me. and i think F can give me this.
but there's just nothing there. nothing. no tingle. no butterflies. nothing.
i'm scared that if i choose to follow my heart and not my head, wich is really the only right thing to do, i'm gonna change my mind...
080516 so here it is...
i've decided to create a blog. but i haven't decided weather i should write in english or in swedish.
the future will tell..
-peace
